It seems so easy to blame my perception.

Step XXXVI
Fidelity

Sleep is just a dream and I am not waking.
I've been counting enough to make an eternity stretch out in to nothing.

Lips which press together stifle rhythmic heavy breathes

Step XXXV
Adulation

Maybe if I could see my idols from where I am standing, I wouldn't have to act so appalled.

There are five thousand words in the mile between my head and my heart.

Step XXXIV
Assuredness

Sometimes nothing comes when I need it.
On the flip side, sometimes I'm assaulted by too much to even hope to explain it or relate it to someone else. As soon as I realize I'm caught in a situation like this, I just shut down. I just stop trying to be anything to anyone. I justify this by saying that you can't let someone down if they don't expect anything of you.

There are five thousand words in the mile between my head and my heart.